I’ve talked quite a bit this month about threes and trinities. Here is one more, to end April, and to start May.

I love Paulo Coehlo’s writings. They have been uplifting and eye-opening for me as I have been making my way through a tough patch. They give me inspiration, and hope for tomorrow, and the next day.

Here is today’s quote. From the outside, it may seem as if I am suffering. But as I seek my goal, the quest makes me happy.

Here are some samples of Carlos Castaneda’s writings about being a warrior. There are no violent connotations to this sort of warrior, one of the spirit.

The most difficult thing in this world is to adopt the spirit and attitude of a warrior. It is no use being sad, complaining, feeling unjustly treated, and believing someone is doing something negative. No one is doing anything, and certainly not to a warrior.

And, here is the latest Warrior of Light newsletter. He talks about what I do here many days, which is write what is in my heart. It does take a certain amount of courage to open your heart and soul up and allow others in. This way, it is not an intrusion. Writers want you inside of their souls.

Since letters, words and sentences are traced out on paper, there is no reason to feel tense. The hand that writes eventually comes to rest, and the heart of the person who dared to share his or her feelings smiles.

Thank you, Mr. Coehlo.

Namaste

I was going to take a snippet from this article, but decided to just link to it. It’s than Rev. Wright, it’s about not being vindicative, but being as good as we can be, at every possible moment.

Another 30 days in the books. Another 31 to come.

Now what?

Each day I will treat as I have treated the last–as a lifetime.

And what of the pulses. I know what they are. What good can I do with them?

Namaste.

There’s a documentary out on a Frenchman who wire-walked across the World Trade Center towers in 1974. I love the quote about him being scared….

“Scared is such a little word,” says Petit. “Terror is much more noble.”

And another great quote…
When a friend answered his phone and said the makers of Sweet’N Low were calling with a proposal, Petit said, “Hang up on them. I am strong and high.”

And this…
“If an artist is not a little famished, then something is wrong.”

That last one is great. I want to stay hungry.

Namaste

I want my partner, lover, soulmate to thrive in an environment that gives her nourishment, joy, happiness and love.

Namaste.

Outro vechera mudrenn’ee

(Morning is wiser than night)

Good morning, indeed.

Namaste.

I am grateful that everyday is a lifetime, to be explored fully.

I am grateful that the energy continues to course through me.

I am grateful for the test.

I am grateful to be a finder.

I am grateful for now.

What is my vision for myself?

To be in a great, loving relationship with a great, loving woman.

To write and edit, hopefully online.

To not need too much materially, but to take and give everything I can spiritually and emotionally that is good.

To be happy.

To be.

Namaste.

for me to return to my thin place.

Namaste.

Goodnight.

I love Paulo Coehlo and his quotes. They are always fresh and thought-provoking.

Like today’s.

I wish one part of my life was less of a rollercoaster, or less of a mountain. But it is, and I am riding and climbing well.

I am not angry about what I lack. I am dissatisfied, yes, but the quest makes me happy. The challenge makes me happy.

Namaste.

I am in possession of the most incredible energy, passion, to be everything I can be for myself, and more importantly, for someone else. Everyday, I am like this. And everyday, I pour out what I have here.

I have to, because what I have and what I feel cannot be contained in me. It has to be outside of me. It is not where I want it to be (or, perhaps it is, in some way). I can’t contain it. And I make no apologies for not containing it, and I make no apologies for how I feel. It is as ingrained in me as anything I have felt in my life.

I want to pour this out. I want the world, the universe, the roots, the soil, to know what I have. I want this rooted into the ground, and I want it stretching into the sky. I want this feeling, this state, to be me. And I want it to be for someone else.

This morning, I quoted Pablo Neruda. I can’t say it any better than him. I want to make someone blossom like a cherry tree. I want to nourish their roots, their buds, their leaves, their beautiful flowers, their beautiful fruit.

I can’t think of anything more beautiful to give to someone. I don’t want to be possessive of what I have. I never want to be that way.

Namaste

The sound of the rain pounding against the window does much to soothe and nourish my soul.

Namaste

My soul dances on invisible streams of air. It moves gracefully, expanding itself outward.

Simply, this is all I seek to do, and all the nourishment I seek to give, to a woman. At any moment…

“I want to do to you what spring does with the cherry trees.”

Pablo Neruda

Good morning

Namaste

Dear chehaw,

So, another month is drawing to a close. Where are you? Not physically, but spiritually, emotionally?

If I may be so bold to guess, I think you look like you are in the same place as you were at the beginning of the month. I say look because it’s hard to tell where you are, or where anyone is, by merely looking at the face and body. After all, the body is only the container for the soul.

I think your soul feels good. You don’t feel as happy as you could feel. But you remain as confident as ever about your quest. You feel the rivers of life flowing in you all the time, and all you want to do is to let those waters flow out of you to someone. Something so simple, and so complex, all at once.

You have doubts and lonely times, I know you don’t deny this. And you treat these as they should be treated, as temporary. What fuels you is hope, faith and belief. You believe in what you can do and what you can be for the heart and the soul of a woman. You have always known you can uplift someone. Your style is a little different, yes. But your intentions are always good.

I have to agree with your friend. I have difficulty imagining why any woman wouldn’t want what you have, and are willing to give. Why someone won’t take the shield of protection you hold out for them is beyond me.

And still. In your quiet way, you remain extraordinary. Your resiliency is remarkable. I sense it’s that why because you never lose sight of what you have. And what you want to give.

Keep your eyes open.

Namaste.

Quite a lot, actually…

A three-fer from our old friend…

Suffering has no strength to wound a weary body.

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The brave are always stubborn.

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Courage is fear that prays.

A friend mentioned to me that I am diplomatic. Yep, sure am.

I see myself as a protector, a confidante, not a fighter. When I take you to my side, there is no better place for you to be. I am going to look out for you, protect you from the storms of life as best as I can, and build you up.

Do I get myself in trouble for this? Oh, yes. I sacrifice a hell of a lot of me. But I always have more to give.

But as I’ve said before, I am not in my life solely for me. I am in my life for others. What builds you up, builds me up. If I can’t give my love in some ways, this is the way for me to do it. I want to continue doing this.

At any moment, I am going to give you the best of what I have. Even if you may not want it.

Namaste

The weird, wonderful dreams I had on Saturday shift to Sunday.

And there’s a trinity involved.

I can’t figure out what the trucker means. If there’s a load I’m carrying, it’s fuel.

The really dark fog that was on the highway magically cleared.

And the sign on the highway looked very familiar, leading to something.

Namaste

Peep this.

For kicks, I took this internet test. To see what I am like. (As if I didn’t know.)

It says I am a considerate leader. Interesting. But I need to work on the shyness thing, apparently. Yeah, yeah, I know.

Ah, but here’s the thing: According to this, I am very confident.

Yes I am. There’s nothing like getting your butt kicked to boost your confidence.

Just so you know. Yes, the pulses are still there. A little steadier.

And just as the pulses haven’t faded, neither has my desire, my ability, my longing, to be all I can be for someone. It remains ever-present.

Three more things I have:

hope
faith
belief

Namaste.

Talking about threes…

As big as my heart is, it wants to receive as well as give. I treat it like a child and give it every advantage I can.

Namaste.

Aren't regrets. They are an opportunity, second chances for improvement.

Namaste

When I look at other couples, I don't feel alone, or jealous or
envious. I feel good, fortified, knowing that I have what they have
the juice. I only lack the vessel in which to pour it.

Namaste

No, I'm not the greatest starter in the world. That's why I work to be
the best finisher I can be.

I'm on a run of threes lately.

I can do more.

I can be more.

I can give more.

Namaste

This time, another trinity. More tangible.

A trinity, with two lives I’ve affected. Both reachable, but ungraspable.

And me in the middle.

Namaste.

The roots of me keep growing deeper.

Namaste.

It really does.

And thank goodness it’s more than this. I am going for more than this.

Namaste.

You see, if I were playing a game, it’s not a game played for four quarters, or nine innings, or three periods.

It is a game I am playing at every moment, at any moment. I am playing it for the good, for keeps, for the best.

Inexhaustible.

Namaste

I feel good about the goodness I have to give.

Namaste

Am I ever going to be gassed, exhausted by my quest?

No.

Remember, I am inexhaustible.

I am proud of the way I look.

I am more proud of the good health I feel inside.

I am even more proud of my capacity of my heart and what it can do.

It’s that last one that outweighs the others.

Namaste.

If this guy can land on his feet, so can I.

I'm not naive, or stupid, or blind, or a wimp.

Thank you again for your strength.

A woman's outer beauty is amazing. But it pales when compared to inner
soul, heart, spirit, strength.

Thank you for being my muse.

Namaste

Thank you for the challenge.

Thank you for the vessel.

Thank you for showing that selfless is best.

Thank you for showing me that it is healthy.

Thank you for making me smile.

Thank you for making my heart light.

Thank you for making this a beautiful day.

Thank you for helping me showcase my goodness.

Thank you for taking advantage of me.

Thank you for letting me take advantage of you.

Thank you for being the bellows for my fire.

Thank you for making every day a glorious lifetime.

Thank you for helping me display and give true love.

Thank you for being my sensei.

Thank you for letting me say thank you.

Thank you for letting me say namaste.

Thank you for you.

No, I should not be going down the road I am on.

Generally, it ends in disaster.

But I am beyond disaster, defeat (or, at least I hope I am).

I am going to be as good as I can be. I make no apologies for being less.

Doing. Being. Becoming.

And a secret trinity for today…

“For every nine people who denounce innovation, only one will encourage it…for every nine people who do things the way they have always been done, only one will ever wonder if there is a better way…for every nine people who stand in line in front of a locked building, only one will ever come around and check the back door. “

Za Rinpoche & Ashley Nebelsieck, from the book “The Back Door to Enlightenment”

I want to be the one…

You can too.

“I am but a poor struggling soul yearning to be wholly good, wholly truthful and wholly non-violent in thought, word and deed, but ever failing to reach the ideal which I know to be true. It is a painful climb, but the pain of it is a positive pleasure to me. Each step upwards makes me feel stronger and fit for the next.”

Ghandi

I am grateful for the challenge.

Namaste.

No, the fire I have inside me refuses to be snuffed out.

It burns bright.

Namaste.