Late night edition

There’s a lot of talk of give give give. There’s no fear of take take take. It’s a cycle.

–me

My sensei,

It’s been awhile since I’ve written to you. I assure you things are fine. Lots of things have been on my mind lately.

The things I do, the way I act, the ways I think–in my heart, my soul, my spirit–do not find growth in the soil of arrogance or defiance. But growth in the soil of love. I will not uproot them. As a gardener tends to his peppers, cucumbers and tomatoes, I tend to my heart, my soul and my spirit not only to nourish me, to nourish another. I pray I never starve anyone of nourishment. I have too much nourishment flowing through me not to give it.

The words to say I am grateful for the nourishment I have, and the nourishment I can give, cannot be properly conveyed here. I am always ready to give it. I have more than I need.

I will see you at the top of the tree.

Namaste

Last night, I said I was 36.

Well, I lied.

Happily, I lied.

Writing is a spontaneous act for me. I think it/I feel it, I write it.

However.

I want to write about three things–heart, soul, spirit–but I can’t figure out how to get at them. But it will come.

Spontaneously.

Innovation

Innovation

Innovation

–me

The stillness of the morning is elixir for the soul. Before diving into the storm of the day, right now, everything in my soul is clear.

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One of the things that pains me is for anyone reading this to think I am selfish. It is the last thing in the world I want. Selfishness to me is to keep this, keep all of me, hidden away, locked somewhere that no one can reach it. I want me out there–maybe I will touch someone.

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Even if I don’t write much here, it doesn’t mean I don’t live everyday. Tears, pain, joys, smile, stillness–and everything in between. It’s a full day. Every day.

There are times, like now in the quiet of the morning, where I’d prefer to stay home and write, or shoot photos, or shoot video. It’s not that I’m a layabout. I’m more concerned with what my soul can do for the soul of another. I want to explore that.