Oh, while I live, to be the ruler of life, not a slave, to meet life as a powerful conqueror, and nothing exterior to me shall ever take command of me.
That’s one of the phrases I have a particularly hardy dislike for. But, in this instance, I think it’s appropriate…
In the dream, I was somewhere, and in a bad state. I was waiting for something, and I kept screaming out,
“I hate my life! I hate my life!”
Oh, I was waiting for my mom to bring my something, but it would be hours before I got it.
The bad dreams are the ones that usually stick with you. And this is a big, bright sign. Life has to change for me. Not major changes, but smaller, subtle changes (as if a job change is a small thing). And I can’t wait for a safety net to check my fall. The time for me to do the jobs I want, to live the way I want, is now. The time to wake up is now.
“The pain of life is pure salt; no more, no less. The amount of pain in life remains exactly the same. However, the amount of bitterness we taste depends on the container we put the pain in.”
There I was at my desk Friday, a couple of days after turning 41, and thinking…
I can’t wait to see what I’m like when 10 years from now. What will I be like? How will I have grown? What will I have done? Where will I have been? I’m looking forward to finding the answers.
In life, failure is an option. We avoid it and run from it as much as we can, but it’s always there, always lurking, with its companions hurt and disappointment. Yet, we always have the ability to grow and expand after failure has cuffed us about. Recognizing that ability…that’s another matter.
i’m scared. i am facing changes in myself that may shift the course of my life–changes in work, changes in thought, changes in being. how i face them and what i do in response to them will be key. as always. maybe i’m scared to make the changes that i know i need to make. i need to change my career. i like where i live. i want to find a life partner. i want a life change. i need to continue to reach out to friends and would-be friends. i want to travel more.
The Hall of Fame edition
“Good news is never late.”
Cris Carter, who finally makes the NFL Hall.
And he’s right. It’s never too late.